July 31, 2012

• nothing interesting here. . .

  It's been a while since I made a post, although I'm still around commenting.  Things have been rough lately.  Buying my childhood home from my parents may not have been the best idea, too many ghosts.  I've been here almost one year now.  My parents have been in Florida almost a year now.  I'm still trying to adjust to the fact that I can't just drive over and see them any time I want.  We've always been a very close family and now I feel so alone with my parents in a different state and my brother having been killed.  I have no other siblings.  I have no family left in the state I live in.  And my house does nothing but remind me of the past.  :(  It's been difficult.  I knew I was slightly depressed a few months ago, but it seems to have gotten worse lately.  Since I'm depressed I haven't been keeping up with everything like I should, so my house still isn't put together and I have other projects started and then pushed aside.  That in turn has triggered stress which has triggered my OCD.  I'm getting too caught up in the details and can't seem to get anything finished.  And I'm constantly tired, but can't sleep.  Thankfully two of my friends have been a huge help through this.  This weekend they both came over and helped me get a lot done.  I still feel completely overwhelmed, but it helped.  Hopefully soon the house will be completely organized to my OCD standards, I know from past experience that alone will make everything at least 75% better, lol.   

  Anyway, here's a picture of my youngest cat, Kaya - she's very patient with the game "stuff on my cat", lol!

  

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