Thursday, 09 July 2009

Monday, 06 July 2009

  • Post CONvergence 2009. . .

    I went to CONvergence this past weekend - for the first time in 5 years.  I had to look it up in my weblog archives as to when the last time I went to CONvergence was, and it was in 2003.  I only went this year from Friday afternoon to Saturday afternoon, it was all I could handle with my social anxiety.  I'm considering pre-registering for next year so if I have to bail due to my social anxiety it won't be such an expensive one day at CON.  They no longer offer one-day passes.  My other option is to get a room to myself so I can sleep and get drunk before I go back out amongst the strangers, lol.

    I learned something this year at CON, I learned that I am completely out of shape!  I may still be thin and look good, but I do not get anywhere near enough physical exercise.  I only spent one day/night at CON and for the last 2 days I've been barely able to walk because my calves hurt so much.  My back is killing me as well.  I'm going to have to start exercising, lol.  Of course, wearing better shoes would probably help as well. 

    All-in-all I had a good time, or at least what I remember was good anyway, lol.  I had no intention of getting drunk at CON this year, was planning on only drinking a few Guinness, but apparently I also had some rum, 15-year-old scotch and vodka.  I remember starting with the beer, I remember having some rum, I even vaguely remember the 15-year-old scotch.  I have no idea when I had the vodka, or where it came from.  The last thing I remember was sitting outside in the smoking area having a good time.  We had a room, but I woke up in a car.  I found my way back to the room and that's pretty much when my social anxiety came crashing down on me and as much as I really wanted to stay I knew I couldn't.  I wish I could find something that truly helped with this anxiety/agoraphobia issue.  I suppose it goes deeper than that really, I've cut myself off from so much that a good time inevitably leads to hell no matter what.  I crash too hard from these things.  But never mind that, I'm using my other weblog to dump all my messy emotional shit onto. 

    We ran into a handful of people we knew, not anywhere near as many as we used to hang out with at CON last time I was there.  I guess I wasn't the only one who gave up on CON for a while.  Of course the first person we saw that we knew was on our "to avoid" list.  Lucky for us that was the only "to avoid" person we ran into, everyone else were people we were hoping to see. 

    Ken was supposed to call me when he got home today, but he didn't, so I can't fill in my missing memory until I talk to him, lol.  Hopefully he took some pictures I can post as well.  I should be sleeping but my sleep schedule has been completely messed up since Thursday. 

Tuesday, 30 June 2009

  • a rather sick but funny joke. . .


    At 5:15 am, Thursday, June 25th, 2009, Farrah Fawcett passes away after a long battle with cancer.

    Shortly after she arrives at the Pearly Gates and meets with Saint Peter.

    Saint Peter said, "Farrah, you are truly an Angel and before you pass through these gates, I offer you one wish." 

    Farrah said, "Saint Peter, I want safety and security for all the children of the world." 

    Six hours later, Michael Jackson is dead.
      

Thursday, 07 May 2009

  • National Day of Reason

     

    Today is the National Day of Reason. 

    "Two hands working can do more than a thousand clasped in prayer."  -  Anonymous

    "Gods are fragile things; they may be killed by a whiff of science or a dose of common sense."  -  Chapman Cohen

Saturday, 25 April 2009

  • insomnia again. . .

    Get to know yourself better

    Your view on yourself:

    Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

    The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

    You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

    Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

    You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

    The seriousness of your love:

    Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

    Your views on education

    Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

    The right job for you:

    You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

    How do you view success:

    You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

    What are you most afraid of:

    You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

    Who is your true self:

    You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

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